whoa now....

Okay so I don't post all summer and now 2 posts in like 30 minutes??! But I have to post this. It's been a hard day. So hard. It's been a hard month. I have been so overwhelmed. I cry daily over stupid and small stuff. And I just read my friends blog. She was having a hard day too. But she is stronger than me. She talks about things, and she deals with them. She posted this link and I can't stop reading this blog now. Amazing. Crazy how you think the worst is happening to you, and then you take the time to actually look around and realize that it really could be worse. Way worse. I am trying to understand why I have certain trials in my life. What I'm supposed to be learning here. And why I don't have other trials, things that other people like this poor young family has to deal with. I am so greatful for the church, I just need to rely more on my Heavenly Father. But I'm still learning. It's stories like this one that make me stop and listen. Sad how that's the way it has to happen.

Oh Summer....

It has been forever since my last post! And SO much has happened. I will one day get to it all. Tonight I am feeling kinda melancholy though, so I thought I'd write. I love to write, and I just started a journal...again. I seem to always start them, but, CONFESSION, I never finish them! Oh well, best intentions I guess. There is just so much going on right now, I don't want to forget anything.

So, first up. One of my dear friends moved out of town. And I'm feeling sad because it's hard for me to make really good friends. And I finally made a good one and got all comfortable and she moved!! But I'm happy for her, because she is in her absolute element. Seriously, it's like she was supposed to be there all along.

Next...I'm PREGNANT!!! In case you haven't heard. Man I hate how word gets around sometimes! I have been waiting FOREVER for this, and I tell a few people and then everyone knows...but I want to be the one to actually say it! Because I have worked hard and waited long for it!!! Oh man, no more clomid, no more "planning" and tracking...but...hello all day sickness, Diclectin, Zofram, nausea, and chubbiness!! But I LOVES it, I really do. And I can't wait to find out what my little peanut is!!

It's been a crazy summer. I will post pictures of all the fun stuff we got to do. Soon. I just wanted to let those who actually read this know that I'm still alive! Going through kind of a rough time with the business, but I'm alive. It's hard being a business owner and a mom. I feel like I don't give Bella all the attention she needs and deserves. I mean she's still not potty trained, what is wrong with me?? Any potty training tips would be MUCH appreciated!